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pre-op feels

Writer's picture: Makeda RoneyMakeda Roney

12/1/2019

…my last week of playing with pilates and dance in the studio before my surgery on my hip.

i am nervous…. not because i don't think the surgery and recovery is

a good idea or won't be successful but because this is my second

surgery this year (#shadowwork) and very my first surgery where

my instrument that leads my dance career will be tampered with.

and i have the oddest emotions about it. i feel almost super

protective over my body in a way that i never knew before or

understood (like a mama wolf feeling protecting of her baby from

the outside world? idk where that analogy came from lol) and i have

a slight feeling of violation to my body with this surgery, although i

know i will be in great hands and everything is going to be 100

awesome. i am also nervous because as i've been training to be a

pilates instructor, i have been getting the strongest i've ever been

and felt in my life and it's hard knowing i will have to slow up for

6-8 months after the surgery. i don't want to lose the strength and

body achievements that i am finally finding.

however underneath all that, i have a deep feeling and knowing that

after 4 years of off and on pain and micromanaging of my hip and

my career, this is going to be a really beautiful and successful

surgery and recovery. my intuition and spirit guides tell me this and

they never steer me wrong. I am really looking forward to relief,



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